We are gifted by God with the ability to count. I know this seems very elementary, but when you’re homeschooling preschool, counting is a really big deal. So, as I count to 30 over and over in hopes that a little someone can catch on, I have a lot of time to think about numbers.
Numbers help us understand the world. They help us know what fits where and how much of something we have or need. God’s word is filled with numbers. Take for example an entire book…called Numbers. They can be a wonderful thing, and they can also keep us up at night.
Here’s an example of the numbers that keep me up at night:
- 1 in 100,000 – Births in which GSD (the disease that my son lives with) occurs
- 26, 16, 11, 16, 23 – grams of cornstarch in each of the five servings my son takes in each day
- 0.2 – The highest acceptable amount of Ketones for my son
- 70 – The lowest acceptable Blood Sugar number for my son
- 9,762,345,723 – The number of times I’ve felt guilty for what is happening in our family in relation to this disease which I now know was hiding in my DNA. I do know it isn’t my fault, but this is the amount of times my reason has failed.
I numerate this (see what I did there) not to whine or get any sort of sympathy. I just say all of this because I am sure there are others reading this that stay up at night with their own numbers. It’s a part of how we attempt to deal with the worries of our lives. But this kind of counting, these kinds of numbers, are not helpful; as evidenced by the fact that I am not sleeping when these numbers are running around in my head.
But there is good news.
Our God is bigger than all of those numbers (even my guilt).
God promised an unfathomable future to Abram (before he was renamed Abraham) when He asked him to number the stars (Genesis 15:5). God promised something beyond what anyone could quantify. How long do you think Abram sat under those stars counting and recounting when it looked like God would not come through on that promise? Yet the Bible makes very sure to tell us that Abram believed the LORD and God “counted it to him as righteousness” (Genesis 15:6).
God is bigger than we can count, which by extension, makes Him bigger than all of the worries we spend our nights counting.
So, tonight, when you and I are staring at the ceiling watching our particular numbers float by, let’s remember the one who gave us our ability to number and who is bigger than we can ever reduce to any number. God’s goodness is beyond anything we can ever count. Just like the stars in Abram’s sky.
We must remind ourselves constantly of His greatness. Perhaps by taking the actions of the Psalmist:
“My mouth will tell of your righteous acts, of your deeds of salvation all the day, for their number is past my knowledge.” Psalm 71:15
Stop counting your numbers and let your mouth tell of deeds of your God. That will keep you counting on the good things, the perfect things.
Have a good night!